I am struggling to get it into my head.
I have 1000 WordPress followers.
There are 1000 of you wonderful, lovely, amazing people out there, which in itself is a number I can’t come close to comprehending. Each one of you is fantastic, interesting, and just a genuinely fabulous person, and each of you have taken time out of your day — whenever you did so — to follow me, and my little Internet corner. That, to me, is absolutely insane!!
There are 1000 of you, reading and liking, commenting and interacting with me; 1000 of you who read what I have to say, who listen and help, chat and laugh — 1000. I can’t get my head around it: I really can’t.
Very rarely, I get a bit scared when I think of people following my blog. Not scared for my privacy, or for fear of one of them being someone I know; I’m pretty much over that now, and would be fairly chill if it turned out I knew someone following this blog. I get scared nevertheless, because I realise that you read what I’m saying, and if I say something accidentally wrong, or say something perfectly acceptable in a completely unacceptable way, then that’s going to go out to all of you. Essentially, I am scared of fucking up, of saying something wrong or doing something wrong; it’s Never happened, and you are the most understanding and caring bunch of people I’ve ever had the pleasure to encounter, but it does very occasionally still concern me.
Or, for example, I’m scared that I’ll set a bad example. I realise this isn’t a cult (… or is it?), but if I do something stupid, irresponsible or even dangerous, it’s always in the back of my mind that I don’t want to hurt any of you guys, or get you in trouble.
When I started blogging, there was no way that having 1000 followers was ever in the realm of attainability for me. 1000 is this outlandishly-large number — a number I would have associated with, like, bloggers who are actually good at what they do. 1000 is a number I can’t imagine: I mean, try doing the seating plan for that many people! 1000 is just a crazy number — are you getting that vibe, by any chance?
I appreciate each and every one of you, though; I really do. Some of you have been here from the very beginning, which is just mad — almost three years of reading my junk! Some of you are more recent members of this bizarre club, and to you, I say ‘welcome’, and where the heck have you been? Yes, I’m talking to you: you’re late.
I know my activity has been, at best, spontaneous on here as of late: exams and studies have taken over my life. I promise, though, that over the summer, I’ll be back with full-force (no, no — it’s OK; don’t run away), and it’s going to be so much fun. I really love you all for taking time out of your day to read my words and stories, and for sharing yours with me. I don’t know where I’d be without you all, and I’m going to make sure you know that. I have a really cool, fun project in the works, which will be my summer feature on here — I’m looking forward to finally sharing it with you, because I’ve been working on it for ages!! (Is the suspense killing you? Is it? …)
I love you all, and thank you — from the bottom of my heart — for everything you do, whether that be reading, commenting, or just checking in from time to time. You are an incredibly fabulous llama.